Hola! It's been awhile since I checked in. Things are absolutely bonkers around here right now. Today begins my last day of work at my current job. Which is mild-moderately terrifying since I'm still searching for employment in Vermont. {
If you have any connections in Burlington, feel free to send them my way.} One week from today I will be waking up in a different state where we LIVE. Crazy talk.
We have lined up two places to live. Because we really love drama, we are moving into a temporary home on July 1 and then again on August 15 into our permanent residence. Which means for 6 weeks, we'll be living out of like 3 boxes. Very exciting. I love our permanent place...at least, what I've seen of it in pictures since I haven't actually been. It looks like the neighborhood and location will be a great fit for us and it's a similar layout to our current house. Now if we can just find someone to rent our current place so we can get out of our lease...
I've been such an emotional basketcase the past few weeks that I'm wondering if this is what pregnancy hormones will be like. I'm all over the place. Really hyperactive and happy and packing and dreaming of nesting one minute, overwhelmed, stressed, and crying hysterically the next. Last Monday I have a cry session the likes of which haven't been seen since my toddler days. And I'm an ugly crier. No bueno. I really am tickled to bits about our move, but heaven forbid I mention that there's anything I'm stressed/scared/worried about and everyone I know is like, "But you wanted this!" Yes...yes, I did. And I'm thrilled that it's happening. And I know it's all going to be worth it in the end. But just because we pursued this doesn't make a 600-mile move in 3 weeks any less stressful. So please everyone...just let me have my pity party cake and cry over it too. K?
Mainly I'm just getting emotional at leaving Virginia. I have never left. Ever. All of my life is here. My family has been here for generations. We're talking back to George Washington's time. Virginia is in my blood. I grew up here, I've experienced all of my joys and losses here. All of my firsts and lasts have been here. I graduated from high school and college here. I had my first "grown-up" apartment here and I adopted both of my sweet dogs here. I met, fell in love with, and married my husband here and we started our life together here. My entire being, who I am and everything that has shaped me, is inextricably linked to Virginia. I know we'll be back. And it's not as though we're moving that far away; we're in the same timezone and just a quick flight home. And I have never thought of myself as someone who was afraid to be far some home. I'm still not afraid...I'm just sad. I feel like I'm leaving a large part of myself behind. It truly is the closing of a chapter of my life, in a way that feels more tangible and permanent and defined than any other chapters.
But with all of that said, I can't wait. We are so excited to just go somewhere as us and, in a way, start our life together all over again. Away from where we grew up and met and had all of these experiences. It's a chance to redefine our marriage, our careers, and ourselves. What an adventure that will be.
I don't plan to post again until we've made the move. I want to enjoy every last second in Virginia and then there's that business of never-ending packing. Enjoy your week and see you in Vermont!
12 comments:
Even if it is what you wanted, there are OF COURSE going to be a mix of emotions! The logistics of moving across town are crazy -- moving hundreds of miles away sight unseen is a huge, huge leap of faith. I know you and M and The Pupz will take it all in stride. Enjoy your time before the move - cannot wait to hear about all the adventures in VT!
Change is hard...and scary! I had numerous meltdowns leaving NYC. I was coming "home," but leaving a place I had called home for 12 years. Change is also good...you and M will get into a grove and meet friends. One thing I learned when in NYC, your friends become your family because you are not close to your own. Also, I bet M will be so much happier with work and it will be amazing for both of you!
Aww! Moving is so much like being pregnant. You're excited and totally freaked out at the same time. It's a big change and it's totally normal to be sad about leaving you're old life behind. I think once you're there and in it you'll feel much better. Good luck!
Virginia is super special, but I'm sure you'll love your next adventure! Good luck!
Hey no matter how exciting or wonderful it is..moving IS stressful, right up there with many other highly emotionally charged events, births, deaths, sudden changes, it goes on...don't underestimate how draining it can be mentally, emotionally and physically. That said VA. is a special place we too have a strong family history and my parents and sister still live there so I "get"
it and seeing those pics of UVA in the fall could melt anyones heart:)
BUT Vermont is also incredibly special, the MOST beautiful fall foliage, eating cheese to your hearts content, having weekly doses of Ben and Jerry's because its the only loyal thing to do, etc....:)
I bet you are going to love it, embrace it and enjoy the new challenges ahead and will be telling us all about it in no time flat. Besides VA can be driven to in a matter of hours if you ever get the desire...best of luck with the move and safe travels!
Good luck!!! You are very brave to make this move. Try and stay positive and enjoy the process of all of it. Can't wait to hear from you once you are settled!
Two weeks after getting married in 2008, I moved with my husband from Williamsburg, VA (where, like you, I'd grown up; graduated from high school, college, and grad school; met, fell in love with, and married my husband...) to Cape Cod, MA (also, like you, sight unseen and without a job). The morning we hit the road, we kissed our parents goodbye and I plastered a smile on my face that hardly waned (even after getting lost in NJ - twice), but I. Was. Terrified. When we finally pulled into the driveway of our temporary home, I cried that ugly cry you mentioned. If you've already made friends enough with the fear/excitement and closing/beginning of chapters to u-g-l-y cry, you're ahead of the game. ;) Keep that patience with yourself; everything will come in its time (I'd have enjoyed those first few months a lot more had I *really* trusted that). You'll do great! P.S. We've visited Burlington a handful of times and it's gorgeous - the people, the Saturday morning town-center-wide farmers' markets, Lake Champlain and her running/biking paths, the university (gotta love a college town!), and um, all the home-grown maple syrup your pancakes can handle.... From one VA girl to another (though yes, I don't you at all), you'll fall in love; just (lameness alert) keep yourself open to its happening. Safe travels!
I'm a Virginia born, Roanoke raised, Richmond living fan, and I know how you feel. Best wishes on your move, the Old Dominion will miss you!
As a fellow Virginia girl, I know exactly what you're saying here. And moving to NC is nothing like moving to VT! To be honest, there's not a big difference between NC and VA, but even still, it totally freaked me out to call another state my home! I hope your last few days in VA are perfect and enjoyable. Try not to stress too much (much easier said than done), and I can't wait to see pictures of the new place once you're there!
Wow soooo much happening....but its all so darn exciting!! I know you are going to love Vermont, its so beautiful and come fall you are going to be kicking your heels in the leaves, eating pancakes with fresh maple syrup and in all your Vermont glory!
Many firsts and lasts happened in Va. but that was one chapter of your life..look at this like a wonderful novel with many new chapters...I look forward to hearing all about this new chapter in your life......just remember to bloom where you are planted and I am sure in no time you will be thriving and joyous over the new move!
A great tribute to your home state... I hope by this point things aren't feeling quite so crazy! Keep us posted!
Wow, what an exciting and understandably stressful time! I can't help but think of how WONDERFUL the summers would be in Vermont as I roast here in Dallas. Good luck, Sarah! I'll look forward to seeing you back here with an update when you're ready to blog again!
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