19 September 2014

This Thing On?

So...hi there. Remember me? I don't even know how to begin this post. I'm not sure that I'm "back" to blogging for good...just that I've been feeling like coming back to this long neglected-space for awhile now. Mainly because my husband and my mother keep asking me when I'm going to start blogging again, which I find hilarious because they're the two people in the world I talk to the most. Aren't you guys tired of hearing from me? Sheesh.

I'm not really sure why I stopped in the first place. We moved and our sublet didn't have internet. Then by the time we moved into our permanent address and hooked up internet, I had started a new job. And by that point I was out of the habit. I also had (and still have) some serious reservations about blogging. About what it is, what it's becoming, what it means about me. Let's be honest: you have to be a bit of a narcissist to blog. I mean, you're assuming that your vapid thoughts and observations are interesting to total strangers. Super Special Snowflake Syndrome at its finest. A lot of the people I "grew up" blogging with either don't blog anymore or have become mommy bloggers (which is fine, but not for me since I'm not a mommy) or have become total sellouts. I got to a point where I wasn't really sure who I was blogging for anymore or why.

Blogging also filled a void for me that doesn't need to be filled anymore. When I started blogging, I was fresh out of college, living in a small town by myself with just a handful of friends and friendly acquaintances. So at that time, blogging was a way for me to connect with women across the globe who I had a lot in common with when that wasn't available to me in my real life. Then we got married and moved to a place we loathed where we had barely any friends or social life and felt like there were no cultural outlets for us. We were miserable and blogging reminded me that there was a wonderful world outside of our little dump. Then we moved again. And we absolutely LOVE it here. We've started to form wonderful friendships and build a community for ourselves. I no longer have the same need to connect online because we've made so many wonderful connections in real life.

Now, though, I see blogging fulfilling a different need, one of keeping in touch with friends and loved ones far away. I got such a kick out of going to my college reunion a few years ago and having old acquaintances come up to me and tell me they enjoyed my blog. Not in an, "OMG I'm such a big deal" way, but in a "It's nice to feel like I'm making a connection with people I don't get to see" way. I miss sharing recipes and having a place to just brain dump all the random stuff going on in my head.

OK now I don't know how to end this post. Do people still read blogs anymore? Comment on them? I don't know. I guess I'll just say "Hi, Mom and M! I'm blogging again!" For now...

5 comments:

KatiePerk said...

I know what you mean. It has changed a lot, but I still enjoy it. The connections are nice, and mostly my friends that aren't near enjoy keeping up with us! I hope you will start blogging again, I really enjoyed your posts, especially your recipes!!

MCW said...

I'm here! And have many of the same thoughts of you on blogging. Apparently our moms are fairly similar, my come keeps asking when I will blog again. She actually thinks I have a private blog I am hiding from her! ha.

Megan Sealock said...

Welcome back! I love the idea of blogging to keep connections with old friends and acquaintances. And I love your recipes, make the Martha Stewart Strawberry Summer Cake all the time! Glad to here you're enjoying Vermont:)
Megan (Peters) Sealock

Rebecca Gess said...

I am thrilled at even the mere thought of you continuing this blog. :)

Baltimore Prep said...

I always enjoyed your blog because you did not sell out and were very genuine. Always a pleasure to read. I hope you find a way to make it work for you!